reivel

I write to you not because i LOVE, but because I HATE... not because i feel HAPPINESS, but because I HATE... not because I'm OKAY, but because I HATE... not because I'm SATISFIED, but because I HATE... I do not seal it with self-destruction, but with TRUTH & HATE... I do not seal it with just BLOOD, but I SEAL IT WITH HATE...

when you cast your shadow on me, i never want to turn to light. you've given so much feathers for me to fly through the infinite sea of stars... and when your lips part to speak in hymns, i shudder and embrace the warmth it brings. with ambivalence i tried to follow your voice, i seek for your footsteps, i seek for your words. but when i wake up on an empty lighted sky, they tell me no hopes for you to be real at all. i wanted to seek you and give me feathers again, enough to make it all come true, to be with you. never would i want to leave the world you created, but everytime i open my eyes, i'm always just lying on the floor.